The waiting NTNP - May 7th 2013

It's a pretty warm day today. Got woken up at 6 this morning, little one wanted a bottle, after he had that he fell asleep till about 10, which was great as it meant i got a little lay in. He got weighed this morning and now weighs 7lb 2oz, The health visitor is happy with his weight gained the last couple of weeks but he is still under the 0.4 centile line. As long as he is following the line they said they are happy, its when he starts dropping off that they will get worried. I still have to get him weighed weekly. Can't believe he's almost 10 weeks old.

Took him to baby massage group this afternoon. My little one was smiling when we got that. One of the ladies i talk to there was saying how smilly he is. I said he only said giving proper smiles on sunday and he rolled. Her hubby said what from back to front, he was surprised to hear it was from front to back. Apprantly thats the hardest for them to do. I put him on his front in hope he's roll over and show everyone how clever he is, and it did it. He showed everyone he could roll over. He even tried to hold up his head and chest today when i put him on his tummy.

I've been charting this whole cycle just so i had an idea of when i ovulated. Going on OPKs and temp i have ovulated, i'm now 4DPO. yesturday i had quite a big temp rise. 36.9 usally it's 36.5, its gone down a little 36.7 but it's still over the coverline, which is a good sign i'm hoping. I'm not testing till i'm late, i'm due on on the 17th and i'm going out on the 25th so not testing till the 26th. I've brought a dress for the 25th so don't want to test before then. To be honest i don't see me getting a BFP this cycle anyway. It took so long to fall pregnat with my son, i'm not expecting to fall pregnant first cycle this time.

The waiting NTNP - May 6th 2013

yesturday I said about how my little one rolled over for the first time, well when i was putting him to bed last time i got a proper smile from him. Not a might be gas might be a smile, this was a full on happy smile. It was great seeing that, loved seeing it.

Today we went into Waterloville to try and find a dress for the 25th. I did find one i liked, went and tried it one, it made my boobs and wasit look pretty good, everything else just looked awful. my thighs and hips went to double the size. It really upset me that i'm a pear shape body and struggle to find things i like that actually look good. I ended up finding a lovely black and red dress online though, with a little help from a friend and the hubby. just have to wait for it to turn up. I hope it looks good on me.

apart from that nothing has really happened, so on an end to what was a lovely sunny bank hoilday i'm off to listen to hubby play xbox and the little one snoring.

The waiting - May 5th 2013

Today has been a pretty good day, got my hair dye the red black colour turned out quite nice, the purple i was going to have on the bottom didn't turn out purple, it's a mixture of colours, So won't be uploading of picture of my hair. I went into Portsmouth to try and find a dress for when i go out on the 25th. I did find one, only it was 2 sizes to big and it was the only one they had, so off to Waterlooville tomorrow to see if i can find one. Not that they actaully have a lot there. If i can't find anything i think i'm going to have to dig through all my dresses that i havan't worn in awhile to see if i have something there. To be honest i don't think i do. I'm hoping i can find something, I have something in mind.

We also went to the in-laws today, as we do every sunday for sunday dinner. We were letting our little one have some tummy time on his cousins playmat. I look at him quickly to check he is ok and his on his tummy, I only looked away for a few seconds and when i looked next he was on his back. I'm so gutted i missed the very first time he rolled. I put him on his tummy again, hoping he'll role again for me, and he did, I actaully saw my 9 week old son role from his tummy onto his back. I'm so proud of my little boy. He was born early and is doing so well. He's now in up to 1 month clothing and growing out of them fast.

I don't really have much else to say, it being a sunday not alot usually happens. I did go off on a rant earlier saying people should really clean up after their dogs. The last thing i want to do is tred in their dog's mess in the middle of a town center. It's stinks and it's horrible.

The waiting - May 4th 2013

I often wonder if anyone actaully reads blogs or do they just seem read. I actaully read something pretty intresting the other day about a famous musican stood in a subway i think it was in the US and played his voilin. He was playing something that was meant to be well known. A few people stopped listened for a little while and then hurried off, one person put money in his case without stopping to listen, a child stopped to listen but was hurried on by his mum, a few other children also stopped to listen but were also hurried on by their parents. In an hour the musican made $31, the piece he played was worth $3 million. The musican and even had a sold out venue the night before, one seat being worth $100. The article then went on to say that if we didn't take time to notice something like a famous musican playing a famous piece of music then what else are we missing, what else are we not taking notice of.
After reading that i thought theres a lot of things i do and take no notice of what it is i'm actaully doing. I used to walk to work without thinking of where it is i was going, i did it so many times i never thought about where i was going. I often go shopping and there would be people in the shopping centers playing their guitars and singing, I rarely take any notice of what it is there are playing or who it is thats playing. I guess what the article was saying was if we don't take time to notice the small things we could end up missing the bigger things.

Ok so one to today. It was a great day, our little woke up at about 7ish for a feed like he does then went back to sleep till about 10 half 10, which meant me and hubby got to lay in. We drove to his parents this afternoon, as me, his mum, his sister, my little one and  his sister's little one had a afternoon out. We went to our local town. I got my son a really cute Tigger baby grow, a little outfit and a hat ready for the summer. I brought some hair dye as well. My hair is in a good need of a dye, the purple i had before as all faded and just looks horrible. So i'm going a redy black with purple tips. If i can pick up enough confindice to take a picture of it when it's done i will do.
This even my in-laws looked after our little of for about 2 hours while me and hubby went for a meal out and played a game of bowling. For a saturday it really wasn't busy. I was quite surprised to be honests. It really was a good day. Much needed day out.

The past few days i've been talking about how i would like to start trying but kinda didn't want to just yet. Well a bit of TMI moment here, but the hubby dosen't like using condoms he preferes it without, i'm not on the pill as it took 25 months to full pregnant after coming of, so we ended up doing the deed without one. I'm not expecting to full pregnant so quick, thats just not my luck.
Anyway after a lovely long day i'm off to bed, in for another long day tomorrow, need to find a dress for the 25th and hopefully getting my hair done as well. Maybe monday will be less busy hehe.

The waiting - May 3rd 2013

I don't really have much to say today, most of the time i end up repeating myself. I did talk to my husband about maybe starting to try for our 2nd baby this month, he really wants to wait until next month, waiting till next month would possible give the same, close due date that our son had. I don't mind that, being pregnant in the winter wasn't too bad. And only being a few weeks gone in the summer wasn't bad either, but then again we had a really bad summer last year. It was the second wettest year on record, so you could image what the summer was like. I'm pretty sure at one point for about 3 4 weeks not a day went past where it didn't rain, i think that made things easier.

Me and my husband went on our first hoilday last year, we booked it for June thinking the weather would be better by then. It was for the first day, the wether was lovely not too hot not too cold not a cloud in the sky, and then the rest of the hoilday it rained almost everyday, on the days it didn't rain it was cloudy, We still had a lot of fun though, Staying in a tent when you have tree brances falling 6 7  feet away from you was scarey. The day we left was lovely weather, which was a shame also being stuck in traffic and then having to wait 4 hours for our ferry wasn't fun. But the hoilday it self was.

At the moment i am finding the whole waiting thing pretty hard, i think it's more because i know we are going to start trying soon, last time it wasn't so bad. we had talked about kids but not really when we'd start trying. It was only about a week or 2 before we started trying for our that we decided. So there wasn't so much of a waiting. I only have another 2 3 weeks to wait, and i have some things planned, so hopefully that we speed time up.

The waiting - May 2nd 2013

Today is the day i've been dreading since my little boy was born, jabs. He had his first set of jabs this afternoon, he cried his little heart out, mot for too long though which made it so much easier to cope with. I gave him some capol when we left and he seems ok, he had his jabs 2 hours ago. he's had he's feed as usally and is now sleeping on my chest. He seems his normal self which is great, i'm just worried he'll be restless tonight. Only time will tell.

I handed in my notice at work today, to say i won't be coming back after mat leave,  my manager knew that anyway, he said that he knew i wouldn't and that it was a shame that i wasn't coming back as they could have done with me coming back, as i'm the fastest cashier there.
Always nice to know you did well at work. Customers always did say i was fast and for that reason they liked coming to me. I am gutted i'm not going back i loved working there (most days).

Even though we are not trying untill my next cycle or till he's 3 month, i still did all the charting and opk testing. I had my first positive opk today my temp dip and cervix postion match that as well, sorry that might have been a bit of a tmi moment. Like i said yesturday i am in two minds if whether i want to start trying for our second now, our first is only 9 weeks old and i did have to get induced and have an EMCS, which is making me want to wait till he is 3 months. I am also going out on the 25th, which means by that point if it was to work first time i would have had a positive pregnancy test by then. I think it will just be best to wait, i would love to have a january baby, if i was to fall pregnant this cycle baby would be due on the 24th, 2 month before my little ones due date was.

I still have a sleeping baby on my chest so i'm going to enjoy the cuddles before the husband comes home.

The waiting - May 1st 2013

I have a poorly baby on my hands today, my little guy has a bit diarrhea, he hadn't had a poo since monday morning i think thats why he has it today bless him. He's done well for a premi baby, first time he's not been well has he 9 weeks tomorrow.

At the moment i'm in two minds, i want to ask hubby if we can start trying now being the begining of the month and if my cycles have returned to normal then i should ovualte tomorrow or saturday, but on the other hand i'm going out on the 25th with a few girls in my area, and will more then likly have a drink or two and i don't really want to drink if there would be a chance of me being pregnant.
I was pregnant last time i had a drink but i would have concieve 2 or 3 days before hand so there was no way of me knowing at that time. I sometimes think it was because of that, that my little boy got IUGR. but i'm only 5ft my self and a UK 10, and i only put on 15lbs in my whole pregnancy. The only time i actaully wanted to put weight on and i struggled, people didn't even notice i was pregnant untill i was about 32 33 weeks. I did love having a small tidy bump though.

 

That's the biggest i got, this was the last baby bump picture i took before i got induced at 36+4 weeks.

It was lovely having a small bump, it meant i could just about fit in all my favourite tops and i got hardly any stretch marks, i thinking useing coco butter helped though.