The trying - May 30th 2013

Usually on a Thursday I'd go to baby club in the morning, but it being half term it's not on. Which in a way was a good thing meant I got to sleep for a little bit longer.
My little woke up at about half 7 for a bottle, so I feed him downstairs instead of in bed. After feeding him we both feel asleep in the sofa and then didn't wake till about half 9. I do love it when he lets me sleep in a little.

I thought about making the chicken soup tonight that hubby asked for last night, but to be honest I don't either of us want chicken two days in a row. Not sure what else to do for dinner. Maybe Tuna and pasta, but I have no cucumber. I'll just have to do it without.

Ok onto cycle day, so tmi warning  Today is cycle day 12. My OPKs are getting darker, not yet positive. My CM has now changed from creamy to watery, which according to charting it means my body is getting ready to ovulate. (I think). Had a little bit of cramping today. We baby danced last night, out a bit of the blue. It was that whole 3am thing. You know? where you go to hug your other half and suddenly they want sex. Yep it was one of those moments. Not complaining it had been a few days since the last time. My temp has now gone back down to 36.3 after it being 36.7 yesterday.

Tomorrow I am dreading, although hubby has not got work because he booked it off, but he booked it off so he could come with me to take our little guy for his second lot of jabs. I hate seeing him in pain. Although last time he only cried for a little while I still hated it.

Still waiting on a letter from Clearblue. I was hoping to have had it by now. I know we have just had a bank holiday so it would take a little longer, but I really thought it would have been here. If I don't get it tomorrow I think I'll have to ring them up and ask about it.

I should really get something to eat, it's almost 4pm and I'm yet to eat. ooppps. On that note I better go and actually eat. Tomorrow's post will be a little later due to taking little one for his jabs :(

The trying - May 29th 2013

As usually nothing much has happened today.
I took a walk down to where I used to work, my supervisor was there, she kept saying how cute my little boy is and how much he has grown. It's hard to believe 12 weeks ago today, at this time I was in the hospital waiting for a spare special cot for my son just in case he needed it. I think I was reading at the time.

Well today is cycle day 11. My temp has gone up by about 0.5 Celsius, I think that might be because my body is getting ready to ovulate. I have had some ovulation cramping, OPKs are negative. Which is to be expected for cycle day 11. I'm expecting the positive some point over the weekend.
My back as not being hurting as much as it has over the last few days, still hurts a little but not as much.

Tried doing some more housework today, managed to tidy the table and hoover before the little woke up again. As soon as hubby came home, he dumped his stuff everywhere as usual.
He did asked if I can make my chicken soup again, after I told him we have chicken for dinner. Told him although I brought fresh chicken (not frozen) it wasn't the chicken I could use for the soup.
So we have Chinese chicken, chips and curry baked beans for dinner. Something a little different I guess.

As usually hubby has come home and gone on his xbox, although he did have a shower before going on his xbox, and he has just done the washing up. It was his turn and I refused to do it, as its meant to be one of the shared jobs.
Dinner is smelling good and should almost be done so I am off to go check on it and hopefully i'll have a bit more to write about tomorrow. Oh I lead such an exciting life *rolls eyes*

The trying - May 28th 2013

I am so amazed to see that since starting my blog it's now reach just over 300 views. Not sure if that is good for a blog that's been going about a month.
Usually on a Tuesday I would have gone to weigh in group in the mornings and in the afternoons baby massage group. Well my little one doesn't need to be weighed every week anymore, just every other. Baby massage group fininshed last week, so that's not going anymore. Which is a shame because I enjoyed going to that. Even normal baby group is not on this week because it is half term here.

My little one was lovely this morning, he woke up at about 5 half 5 for hugs and then didn't wake up till i went to get up at about 9. He did wake up at about 1 though for a bottle which he doesn't do often, We've now started to put him to bed a little earlier then we used to, It dose mean i have to go up with him. I don't usually go to sleep though. We do have a baby monitor, i don't really like using it though. As its one of those on with the mat that you put on baby's bed. I've heard so many stories of them going off falsely, which makes me a little scared to use it.

Today is cycle day 10 of our first cycle actaully trying. For the past few days i've been getting AF like cramps which is a little unusual for me. Its making me think i might ovulate earlier then normal. Its usually day 14 or 15 that i would ovualate. I have been doing OKPs for the past 3 days. All negative of course.
So now my little is actaully asleep, for how long i don't but i need to do a little housework......Oh nope he's awake. My little guy really dose not sleep enough, i don't think.
He has his second lot of jabs on Friday. Luckly hubby has taken the day of so he can come in with me, and hold our son while he gets the jabs done.

The trying - May 27th 2013

I havan't posted all weekend, it's been fairly busy and by the time we got home i was pretty tired.
OK lets start with Saturday.

I was meant to be going out with some ladies on my patch but didn't feel ready to leave my son for that long. Instead me and hubby went to watch "The Hangover 3", while our little one stayed at hubby's parents. We were gone about 3 and a half hours, which is quite a bit less then i would have been if i had gone out with the ladies.
Saturday morning we helped hubby's mum with her food shop. After me and his mum went to Asda instead of our local town, just because it was something different we had a sneaky McDonald's. I told hubby and he was like "right you owe me 3 McDonald's now". I am really surprised I'm not bigger then i am. I am a 10, so I'm not over weight, but sometimes i look at my self and think i want my flat belly back. So when hubby is at work and little one is sleeping i think I'll have to break out the Kinct and some of my work out dvds.

Sunday, I got my tattoo done, it hurt quite a bit. I so would not recommend getting a tattoo done on your leg if it's your first. Not a whole lot happen yesturday to be honest. We got home at about 8pm, and ended up playing COD with hubby and a few friends. I do enjoy playing, means i kinda get to spend time with hubby. even though i end up playing it in the bedroom while he plays it in the living room on the bigger TV.

Anyway now to today. well it's almost midday so i am writing my post earlier then usually, it's also a sunny bank hoilday monday, The second one this year. We hardly ever have a sunny bank hoilday. Most of the time it ends up raining. Later we are back off to the in-laws for dinner. We are having chicken wraps yum yum. Me, hubby and little one might be of in to town later, not sure about that one yet. It might be another late night getting back. meaning we might not get back till gone 8 again.

As i have nothing else to write about i will fininsh with a photo of my new tattoo. Actually no i won't hubby is playing COD online and he will moan that i am making him lag. As he'll be at work tomorrow, if i remember i will post a photo of it then.

The trying - May 24th 2013

I woke this morning with my phone ringing, Thinking to myself I'm pretty sure i did not set an alarm, i looked at my phone seeing a number i did not know. When i answered it, i was surprised to hear that it was clearblue, saying i am in the trail to test a new product. I really thought that i would not get chosen to do it, I know so many people would have applied. Hubby dose not know yet as he didn't do his lunch time text. Doing this trail means having to store pee in the fridge. Don't really like the idea of doing that but if it's all for the trail then fair enough.

Managed to do a little bit of house work in the 15 minutes my son slept. He's 12 weeks I'm pretty sure he's meant to sleep longer then that and more then 2 or 3 times a day. I think today is going to be a short one, not a lot has happened, the most exciting thing that has happened is the phone call i had this morning.

Well it being the UK once again it's been raining. I would say i wish the weather would make it's mind up, but the UK has two weather systems, where as everyone else has one that controls their weather. I know we don't have the worst weather in the world, but from what i get ours can be a little harder to predict. I know the US gets some really bad weather, I sometimes wish we'd get their snow, not so much everything else, you can keep that, sorry :).

Have you ever watched a baby sleep and wonder what the hell they are dreaming of. My little one is pulling some right old strange faces at the moment.

Oh yea, in a few of my posts you would have read that on the 25th I'm meant to be going out, last night i was thinking and realised I'm really not ready to leave my little one for that long or to be that far apart from him. 8 till 3 is a long time to be away from a baby, Bordon to Guildford is quite a distance to be apart from him as well. Like i said he's only 12 weeks old he's too young for me to be apart from him that, i'm not ready to leave him that long. My confidence also plays apart in it as well. So instead of me going out with some ladies i don't really know, i'm going to watch the hangover 3 with the hubby instead. At then i'm only away from my son for 3 to 4 hours at the most.

The trying - May 23rd 2013

Ok so today i'm starting with some sad news, You all will have heard about the forces being out in Afgan, they have been now for a pretty long time, well sadly yesturday one our men was killed in Woolwich London, when he was off duty, Whether the killer knew he was in the army or not is not know as far as i know. He was wearing a help for heros t-shit. From the news i have read the killer shouted out "we will never stop fighting for you Allah". Pretty much everyone i know had changed their profile picture to that of our flag or armed forces colours to recpets the soilder and his family. It makes you think what is the world coming to when a soilder can't even be safe in his/her own country.

Ok so changing the subjet as i feel like i'm going to cry, despite the fact i don't actaully know the soilder, my husband is in the forces so it scares me to think that it could have been him. It scare me to think that some soilders seem to be safer on tour then at home. I know it dosen't happen often here, and i really do feel the places where it dose sadly happen to often.

Really changing the subject. A few days ago i said that i had ordered some OPKs and pregnancy tests. They turned up this morning i know have enough for a good 4 5 cycles most likly more. I have 30 OPKs and 25 pregnancy tests. So plenty to last. Where i am going to store that many i'm not sure, i think in my top draw. makes sense. I don't have any draws in my bathroom so no where to put them in there.

Today is my mum-in-laws birthday, so this evening we are off to see her. We had no idea what to get her for her birthday. She loves baking so we go her a wisk, one of those ones that you hold and it has a handle on it that spins the wisks so you don't have to, which we thought would be perfect as sometimes her arm plays up.

The weather started of really nice today. Although it was not quite warm enough not to have a coat. We took a walk to baby clun this morninig, My little was such a happy baby when we got there making so many of his happy sounds. I'm glad i got home when i did, about 20 minutes after i had got home it started to chuck it down. pretty much the whole raining cats and dogs thing. At the moment it seems to be heavy showers.  I really hope this is not going to be another wet year, Well as wet as last year anyways. Not alot happens now days, like i said yesturday it's pretty much the same thing day in day out. So with that i'm off to think about whether people actaully do read my blog or whether its just a skim read or a quick look. Well at least my views are going up, The last time i looked it was on 274 views. Not to bad.

The trying - May 22nd 2013

Feeling a little down today. The other day i applied to be in the clearblue trial and have heard nothing back. I kinda knew i wouldn't i'm not a lucky person. This is the first trail i have applied for though. would have been nice to hear something, just because of how long it took to fall pregnant with my son. I'm just worried that it will take a long time for it to happen again. At the moment i feel like i want to cry. Don't get me wrong i love my son to pieces he's the best birthday present i could have ever asked for. Oh yea don't know if i said before but i found out 3 days before my birthday i was pregnant.
With all the opk's i have coming i'm hoping i won't have to use them all. I have 30 coming and 25 pregnancy tests all for under a tenner. I think i said that yesturday but i just think its a bargin price, and hubby dosen't have to worry about me asking to buy pregnancy test every time i'm in the two week wait.
I think what else dosen't help with how i feel at the moment is that fact that i'm not working anymore. Working was getting me out of the house everyday and even though it was the same thing everyday sometimes something intresting would happen. Now i'm a stay at home mum, i'm finding doing the same thing day in day out a little hard. One thing that makes all that better is when my little boy smiles, He has the cutest smile, it just makes everything else no matter anymore.

I'm kinda worried about going out on saturday, i know that it's not going to be the kind of music i'm like. I think by the shoes i was talking about yesturday you might be able to guess the type of music i'm into.

Nothing has really happened today, its wedensday nothing ever happens on a wednesday. My little one is asleep and theres nothing on the TV, as soon as i start doing some house work he usally wakes up so have to wait till hubby gets home before i can start. I do need to print some photos off but have not worked out how to use windows 8 yet and thats what hubbys pc uses. I would use my laptop but it won't connect to the printer.